Marvin the Martian
I love the little guy. If I were to be reincarnated as a cartoon character, I think I'd want to come back as him.
In many ways I can relate to him. His schemes, although grandiose, always seem to backfire. He's the Wiley Coyote of outer space.
Essentially a loner, he yearns for glory and attention. Whether he sets out to conquer or to blow up the Earth, it is in the name of his home planet Mars. All he wants is to accomplish his mission and to live his life. Unfortunately, his mission and life keeps getting in his way.
Inside, I'm a bit of a loner too. I like attention, but I have to draw it upon myself. I found a long time ago that I could get attention by doing and saying funny things. I found more comfort in overt humor than allowing myself to exist in a shell of forced seriousness.
I guess there's no room for an extrovert in an introverted soul. If I were an extrovert, who knows, I might have been a stand-up comedian! If I had been more out-going I might have succeeded in achieving some of my school days dreams. I aspired among many things, to be a writer or a journalist. I imagined that with my artistic talents I would someday become a syndicated cartoonist.
Only by suppressing an awkward shy nature, supplanting it with humor, was I able to secure many friends over the years. Otherwise, I would have become the quintessential wallflower. Yet, I take pleasure in sitting quietly on the sidelines - listening and watching. It wasn't always easy being one moment the center of attention and the next the person in the corner wearing the lampshade.
When I was younger Marvin the Martian was my favorite cartoon character and he still is to this day! The bravado with which he carries himself as he aims his ray gun at those who oppose him is not unlike the humor with which I choose to arm myself. While Marvin's ultimate weapon of choice is the Iludium Q-36 Explosive Space Modulator, I'm equipped with only humor for ammunition.
I find my bravado behind the screen of a monitor, secure in the anonymity it offers. There, I can be the writer I always wanted to be. There, I can also be a comedian, albeit a "sit-down" one. There, I can blast through the barriers I had built around myself so long ago.
Somewhere along the way, this Blog has actually become therapeutic. I find myself more accessible. I'm more open and less standoffish in public now. In no small measure, it has been the readers who visit here who have helped give the one thing I had been lacking all these years - confidence.
I know there isn't much humor if any in today's post, but sometimes it just feels good to unwind and to reflect.
Who knew that Blog readers were doctors?
It is most fortunate that a Blog a day does not keep the doctors away!